Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Mysterious makes me Delirious (at times)

Ok, cheesy title I know. But hey, whoever said God works in mysterious ways was probably a thinker. Life has always thrown curveball's my direction. It's almost as if when I hit my lowest points, something comes around and picks me up. Then the cycle starts over again. Example, as I am a major example person. I remember graduating college. Umteen thousands of dollars in government debt aka fannie mae. debt, yuk. (who wants to owe an organization with the name fannie mae anyway. Ok off the subject, i know but still) i was also at a place where i had no job and my pets heads were falling off. you get the point. I literally felt like my life was over. as crazy as that sounds it was reality. I had no direction and no help and i was broke. I was expected to have figured things out or so I thought. i even had to move back in with the parents. oye. i began to worry and worry some more to the point i began to get sick. really sick. sleeping upright is no fun. i had to sleep in a chair cause my heartburn was so bad. but then i got accepted into the disney college program. i didn't gain a whole lot from this program except that i got to go have fun. it was as if God said, learn to enjoy life and trust Me. the funny thing is my stomach began to heal. i still relish my time in orlando. anyway, so now i have this amazing time in my life where i was a slide operator at one of the premier water parks in the world. and it set me up to begin building my life. which entailed me getting better and ready to have a job. And later to get to the point where i could get married to my beautiful wife. i'm so thankful for that time but it probably wouldn't have happened if i had gotten a crumy desk job after college. the point is, i don't understand God, he shows up at weird times or i should say unexpected times. i pray and pray and pray and to my best put my faith and hope in Him but He delays. however, as with my example. I know He hears because there has NEVER been a time in my life that he hasn't come through. as exhausting as it is sometimes, I know he's there. because when I need him the most, when i can't do it on my own, and when life is at it's worst, He provides a way. i said whoever said God works in Mysterious ways was a thinker. I can imagine that they often stopped to realize where they had been and where on earth they were going (literally and figuratively). i am a thinker. the only thing i truly figure out is how little I know. and that wears me out at times.